Frank Ocean Pens tumblr Post Discussing His Sexuality

Earlier this morning rising R&B singer and writer Frank Ocean took to his tumblr and revealed a struggle between a relationship he’s had with a man. The Odd Future affiliate has been the talks of blogs and the media for the past few days. A blog kicked off the discussion on whether Frank Ocean was gay, bisexual or not- due to choice lyrics heard at a listening review. With his album “Channel Orange” dropping soon, Ocean must have decided to address the rumors; telling yet another beautifully written story.

In the extract Frank Ocean pens:

Whoever you are, where ever you are, I’m starting to think we’re a lot alike. Human beings spinning on blackness. All wanting to be seen, touched, heard, paid attention to. My loved ones are everything to me here. In the last year or three, I’ve screamed at my creator, screamed at clouds in the sky for some explanation. Mercy maybe. For peace of mind to rain like Manna somehow.

Four summers ago, I met somebody. I was 19 years old; he was too. We spent that summer, and the summer after, together. Everyday almost. And on the days we were together, time would glide. Most of the day I’d see him and his smile. I’d hear his conversation and his silence until it was time to sleep. Sleep I would often share with him. By the time I realized I was in love, it was malignant. It was hopeless. It was no escaping, no negotiating with the feelings. No choice. It was my first love. It changed my life.

Back then, my mind would wander to the women I had been with, the ones I cared for and thought I was in love with. I reminisced about the sentimental songs I enjoyed when I was a teenager. The ones I played when I experienced a girlfriend for the first time. I realized they were written in a language I did not yet speak. I realized too much too quickly. Imagine being thrown from a plane. I wasn’t in a plane though. I was in a Nissan Maxima, the same car I packed up with bags and drove to Los Angeles in.

I sat there and told my friend how I felt. I wept as the words left my mouth. I grieved for them, knowing I could never take them back for myself. He patted my back. He said kind things. He did his best. But he wouldn’t admit the same.

He had to go back inside soon. It was late and his girlfriend was waiting for him upstairs. He wouldn’t tell me the truth about his feelings for me for another three years. I felt like I only imagined reciprocity for years. Now imagine being thrown from a cliff. No, I wasn’t on a cliff. I was still in my car telling myself it was gonna be fine and to take deep breaths. I took the breaths and carried on. I kept up a peculiar friendship with him because I couldn’t imagine keeping up my life without him. I struggled to master myself and my emotions. I wasn’t always successful.

The dance went on…I kept the rhythm for several summers after. It’s winter now. I’m typing this on a plane back to Los Angeles from New Orleans. I flew home for another marred Christmas. I have a window seat. It’s December 27th, 2011. By now I’ve written two albums. This being the second. I wrote to keep myself busy and sane. I wanted to created worlds that were rosier than mine. I tried to channel overwhelming emotions. I’m surprised at how far all of it has taken me.

Before writing this, I told some people my story. I’m sure these people kept me alive, kept me safe…sincerely, these are the folks I want to thank from the floor of my heart. Everyone of you knows who you are….

Great humans, probably angels. I don’t know what happens now, and that’s alright.

I don’t have any secrets I need kept anymore. There’s probably some small shit still, but you know what I mean. I was never alone, as much as I felt like it. As much as I still do sometimes. I never was. I don’t think I ever could be. Thanks.

To my first love, I’m grateful for you. Grateful that even though it wasn’t what I hoped for and even though it was never enough, it was. Some things never are…and we were. I won’t forget you. I won’t forget the summer. I’ll remember who I was when I met you. I’ll remember who you were and how we’ve both changed and stayed the same. I’ve never had more respect for life and living than I have right now.

Maybe it takes a near death experience to feel alive. Thanks.

To my mother, you raised me strong. I know I’m only brave because you were first, so thank you! All of you, for everything good. I feel like a free man. If I listen closely, I can hear the sky falling too.

Even the leader of Odd Future, Tyler, the Creator, sent out a few tweets in support of his fellow collective member.

The more reason to love Frank Ocean-

What did you think of the letter? How do you interpret his writing? Share your thoughts below.

  • Brent

    Congrats Frank Ocean!

  • It’s Cost Me A Lot, But There’s One Thing That I’ve Got…

    WELL LOOKS LIKE SOME OTHER RAPPERS AND RNB SINGERS NEED TO FOLLOW SUIT. THIS WAS GREAT. I KNOW HE HAS A CULT LIKE FOLLLOWING. IM NOT ONE OF THEM, BUT THIS SHOULD HAVE A BIG IMPACT ON THEM.

    • Jei

      You would assume that would be the case, right? Not so much; ever since this became public knowledge, there has been SO MUCH talk about how they’re not going to listen to his music anymore or buy his album. This is monumental [IMO] an African American male in the hip hop/r&b industry that’s at the PEAK of his career is just WOW to me.

      I just want to know how his peers in Odd Future feel about this considering their blatant homophobic lyrics in their songs. I was already a fan based off his artistry and intellect, but this has made me love him even more!

      • It’s Cost Me A Lot, But There’s One Thing That I’ve Got…

        Tyler released a tweet supporting him after he did it. So hes clear on that front.

        You know black people act so dumb sometimes. I read some of those comments around on different site. I just wish we black gays could petition the government and become legally separated from these people.

        • http://twitter.com/drewshane Drew-Shane

          I tried to skim some of the comments myself. All the press, blogs and media has given positive feedback- then once you scroll down, the comments take on a different story. Since it was the holiday, I’m sure the trolls and gay bashers would be out.

          I wouldn’t mind the separation but I think we’ll eventually die out quick! LOL

        • It’s Cost Me A Lot, But There’s One Thing That I’ve Got…

          Maybe not. See they will keep providing us with new members and they will just turn 18 and switch over to us, their real race. lol

        • http://twitter.com/drewshane Drew-Shane Daniels

          I see you’ve thought about this!

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